Malice's Soul
– OVenom – Secretary – Amaya – O
Lincoln – C
Whip – Chaplain
Viper – Treasurer
Neo – Member – Harley – O
Cane – Member – Parker – O
Piper – C
Cyprus – Member
Fist – Member
Aries – Member
DRMC Southeast
Hammer – Prez – Avery – O
Malice – VP
Axe – Sergeant at Arms
Savage – Road Captain
Gunner – Enforcer
Cy – Tech
Bruiser – Treasurer
Dagger – Medic
Rogue – Secretary
Brass – Chaplain
Glock – Member
Ruger – Member
Blade – Member
Colt – Member
Carbine – Member
DRMC Tennessee
Blow – Prez
Nines –VP
Keys – Tech
Lucky – Sergeant at Arms
Shiner – Enforcer
Griz – Road Captain
Surge – Treasurer
Scorn – Chaplain
Sniper – Member – Rain – O
Nerd (Nick) – C
Storm – C
Flash – Member
Switchblade – Member
Torch – Member
Devil’s Riot MC Colorado
Grinder – Prez
Blue – VP
Driver – Sergeant at Arms
Flicker – Road Captain
Wrecker – Enforcer
Tic – Tech
Beast – Treasurer
Rock – Chaplain
Trigger Warning
This content is intended for mature audiences only. It contains material that may be viewed as offensive to some readers, including graphic language, dangerous and sexual situations, murder, rape, and extreme violence.
Proceed with caution. This book does entail several scenes that may very well be a trigger to some.
Also, tissues are a must with other scenes.
Not for the faint at heart.
If you don’t like violence and cannot handle certain subjects, then this is not a book you’ll want to read.
Check out the playlist I listened to on repeat!
The Patriot – Topher (The Marine Rapper)
Dear Agony – Breaking Benjamin
Gone in a Moment – OverTime
Simple Man – Shinedown
Without You – Breaking Benjamin
So Far Away – Staind
Gravity – Papa Roach
Ain’t No Fool – OverTime
Soul on Fire – Struggle Jennings
Torn to Pieces – Pop Evil
Anthem of the Angels – Breaking Benjamin
Hear Me Now – Bad Wolves (Diamante)
Look into my Soul
When you look at me
What do you see?
Things all around us
But only one can truly see
The depths that are me
Look into my soul
And tell me
Are you the one for me?
Nothing can stop us
We’re together for now
Until my last breath
My soul is yours
As yours is mine
Look into my soul
And tell me
You don’t feel what I feel
That our hearts are one
Same as our souls
~ E.C. Land
Prologue
Willow
Some things are meant to be others aren’t. That’s what my grandpa told me growing up on the farm. He’s a wise man who I love and cherish, but I don’t get to see him all that much anymore. Unless I go home for a visit.
Well, unless I went for a visit. Seeing as I’m now in my car heading home, it means I’ll see him. It also means I’m running away from things that scare me.
Okay, so it’s more like I’m running from the man who scares the hell out of me more than anything. He brings out emotions within me I don’t even understand, and they confuse me. Honestly, they’re mind-boggling. From the first time I saw him come into the coffee shop I worked at, Rise-N-Shine Coffee, I couldn’t get him out of my head. Then spending time at the clubhouse around him during the whole mess going on with Avery, my boss but also my friend, didn’t help the whole situation I found myself in.
A month and a half ago, I’d been kidnapped, and things weren’t great. All because Avery’s siblings wanted her to know they could get to her anyway they could. Meaning they used me in this way. They didn’t think this plan through so well. I knew this because they waited around. Then again, it could have been their plan to begin with as they waited around to watch the fire at Rise-N-Shine coffee. I worked there part-time while going to school. It was fun being a part of her employees.
It sucks I didn’t tell her I was leaving. Instead, I put a letter in the mail and sent it to the clubhouse for her to get in a couple days. That was two days ago.
Turning down the lane to my grandpa’s my heartaches. I don’t understand this feeling of hurt. It’s not like he and I were in a relationship. Shoot, the man is a heck of a lot older than me as it is. Well, technically, he’s nine years older than me. But to me, I didn’t see a problem with it. Too bad he did. Evidently, he thought I was too young for him. It’s why I decided to leave.
Alright, so I decided to run away from the life I’d been starting for myself. I screwed up by making such a fool of myself with him and am now hurt by the fact I’d been an idiot to fall for a man who could easily push me away. Okay, so in his defense, he didn’t really know how I felt about him, but still, he made the decision of not wanting me after taking me to his bed that one night.
As the house comes into view, a sigh slips past my lips.
Home.
A place I can escape the pain of seeing someone who means so much to me, show he doesn’t want anything to do with me.
With my feelings so jumbled the way they are, I’m surprised I can see clearly enough to drive straight.
Part of me wants to say this was a drastic decision leaving the way I did. However, another part of me says it was for the best. Dropping out of school, leaving everything and everyone I’d come to love behind, coming home to the safety of the farm where I can separate myself from the rest of the world.
Here I can ride on the tractor, help my grandpa with the field, get back to my roots and simply be me again—no college to stress about. No Malice to stare at me with that look in his eyes saying I’m not someone he wants to deal with.
This is the part that really confuses me because the night after everything happened, he’d been so sweet with me. Held me to him, comforting me through the rest of the night. It felt nearly magical being in his grasp that something overcame me and he