Dawn
straightened back,caught up a knife, and began to peel an onion from a pan on the shelfbefore her. "Cryin'? Nonsense!" she snapped quaveringly. "Can't a bodypeel a pan of onions without being accused of cryin' about somethin'?Shucks! What should I be cryin' for, anyway, to be sure?Some things need a knife,
An' some things need a pill,
An' some things jest a laugh'll make a cure.
But jest you bet your life,
You may cry jest fit to kill,
An' never cure nothin'—that is sure.
That's what I always say when I see folks cryin'. An' it's so, too.Here, Keith, want a cooky? An' take a jam tart, too. I made 'em thismornin', 'specially for you."
With which astounding procedure—for her—Susan pushed a plate ofcookies and tarts toward him, then picked up her pan of onions andhurried into the kitchen.
Once again Keith stared. Cookies and jam tarts, and made for him? Ifanything, this was even more incomprehensible than were the tears inSusan's eyes. Then suddenly the suspicion came to him—SUSAN KNEW. Andthis was her way—-
The suspicion did not become a certainty, however, until two dayslater. Then he overheard Susan and Mrs. McGuire talking in thekitchen. He had slipped into the pantry to look for another of thosecookies made for him, when he heard Mrs. McGuire burst into thekitchen and accost Susan agitatedly. And her first words were suchthat he could not bring himself to step out into view.
"Susan," she had cried, "it ain't true, is it? IS it true that Keith
Burton is going—BLIND? My John says—-"
"Sh-h! You don't have to shout it out like that, do ye?" demandedSusan crossly, yet in a voice that was far from steady. "Besides,that's a very extravagated statement."
"You mean exaggerated, I suppose," retorted Mrs. McGuire impatiently."Well, I'm sure I'm glad if it is, of course. But can't you tell meanything about it? Or, don't you know?"
Keith knew—though he could not see her—just how Susan was drawingherself up to her full height.
"I guess I know—all there is to know, Mis' McGuire," she said thencoldly. "But there ain't anybody KNOWS anything. We're jest waitin' tosee." Her voice had grown unsteady again.
"You mean he MAY be blind, later?"
"Yes."
"Oh, the poor boy! Ain't that terrible? How CAN they stand it?"
"I notice there are things in this world that have to be stood. An'when they have to be stood, they might as well be—stood, an' donewith it."
"Yes, I suppose so," sighed Mrs. McGuire. Then, after a pause: "Butwhat is it—that's makin' him blind?"
"I don't know. They ain't sayin'. I thought maybe't was a catamount,but they say't ain't that."
"But when is it liable to come?"
"Come? How do I know? How does anybody know?" snapped Susan tartly."Look a-here, Mis' McGuire, you must excuse me from discoursin'particulars. We don't talk 'em here. None of us don't."
"Well, you needn't be so short about it, Susan Betts. I'm only tryin'to show a little sympathy. You don't seem to realize at all what adreadful thing this is. My John says—-"
"Don't I—DON'T I?" Susan's voice shook with emotion. "Don't yous'pose that I know what it would be with the sun put out, an' the moonan' the stars, an' never a thing to look at but black darkness all therest of your life? Never to be able to see the blue sky, or yourfather's face, or—But talkin' about it don't help any. Look a-here,if somethin' awful was goin' to happen to you, would YOU want folks tobe talkin' to you all the time about it? No, I guess you wouldn't. An'so we don't talk here. We're just—waitin'. It may come in a year, itmay come sooner, or later. It may not come at all. An' while we AREwaitin' there ain't nothin' we can do except to do ev'rything thedoctor tells us, an' hope—'t won't ever come."
Even Mrs. McGuire could have had no further doubt about Susan's"caring." No one who heard Susan's voice then could have doubted it.Mrs. McGuire, for a moment, made no answer; then, with an inarticulatesomething that might have passed for almost any sort of comment, sherose to her feet and left the house.
In the pantry, Keith, the cookies long since forgotten, shamelesslylistened at the door and held his breath to see which way Susan'sfootsteps led. Then, when he knew that the kitchen was empty, heslipped out, still cookyless, and hurried upstairs to his own room.
Keith understood, after that, why Susan did not talk to him about hiseyes; and because he knew she would not talk, he felt at ease and atpeace with her.
It was not so with others. With others (except with his father) henever knew when a dread question or a hated comment was to be made.And so he came to avoid those others more and more.
At the first signs of spring, and long before the snow was off theground, Keith took to the woods. When his father did not care to go,he went alone. It was as if he wanted to fill his inner consciousnesswith the sights and sounds of his beloved out-of-doors, so that whenhis outer eyes were darkened, his inner eyes might still hold thepictures. Keith did not say this, even to himself; but when every daySusan questioned him minutely as to what he had seen, and begged himto describe every budding tree and every sunset, he wondered; was itpossible that Susan, too, was trying to fill that inner consciousnesswith visions?
Keith was thrown a good deal with Susan these days. Sometimes itseemed as if there were almost no one but Susan. Certainly all thoseothers who talked and questioned—he did not want to be with them. Andhis father—sometimes it seemed to Keith that his father did not liketo be with him as well as he used to. And, of course, if he was goingto be blind—Dad never had liked disagreeable subjects. Had HE become—a disagreeable subject?
And so there seemed, indeed, at times, no one but Susan. Susan,however, was a host in herself. Susan was never cross now, and almostalways she had a cooky or a jam tart for him. She told