Fancies and Goodnights

That night they were seated as usual in their single chair, she tenderly stroking his somewhat sallow chops, and he protruding his lips, like some eager ape at the approach of a milk bottle, in the attempt to imprint kisses on her passing hand. In this interval it was his custom to recite all the events of the long day, and especially how he had missed her. «And that reminds me,» said he, «I was very narrowly missed myself, by a taxi, as I was crossing the street, and if the driver had not put his brakes on I should have been bowled over like a ninepin. And then maybe I should never have seen my honey bun any more.»
At these words her lips trembled, and her eyes brimmed over with tears. «If you didn't see me any more,» she said, «then I wouldn't see you any more.»
«I was just thinking of that,» said Irwin.
«We always have the same thoughts,» said she.
This, however, was no consolation; their thoughts that evening were so unutterably sad. «All day tomorrow,» said Alice, weeping, «I shall be seeing you lying all squashed in the gutter. I'm sure it will be too much for me. I shall just lie down and die.»
«Oh, I wish you had not said that,» said Irwin. «Now I shall be thinking of you lying all crumpled on the hearthrug. I shall go mad, or die.»
«Oh no!» cried Alice. «Now I shall think of you dying because you think I might be dead. The thought will kill me.»
«Now it's even worse,» lamented Irwin. «Supposing you should die because you think that I've died because … It's too much! I can't bear it!»
«Nor can I,» said she.
They hugged each other very tightly, and exchanged kisses rendered surpassingly salty by their tears. This is thought by some to add relish, as with peanuts, by bringing out the sweetness. Irwin and Alice were too overcome to appreciate fine points of this nature; they could think of nothing but of how each would feel if the other should suddenly die. Consequently they got never a wink of sleep all night long, and Irwin was deprived of the pleasure of dreaming of his Alice, and of switching on the light to find that she was true. She, on her side, was denied the joy of blinking up in a sudden rosy radiance to see him hovering and goggling over her. They made up for this by the passion and fervour of their embraces. Consequently, when the dawn came cool and grey and rational in at their window, the unhappy pair were themselves feeling cooler, greyer, and more rational than at any time since they had first met.
«Alice,» said Irwin, «we must look at this bravely. We must face up to what may happen, and do our best to provide what consolation we can.»
«My only consolation will be to cry,» said she.
«Yes, and mine, too,» said he. «But would you rather cry in a fireless garret, and have to stop and get up and do your own housework, or would you rather cry in a fine apartment, with a mink coat on, and plenty of servants to bring in your meals?»
«I would rather have my meals brought in,» said she. «Because then I could go right on crying. And if I had a mink coat on I should not catch cold, and sneeze in the middle of it.»
«And I would rather cry on a yacht,» said he, «where my tears could be ascribed to the salt spray, and I should not be thought unmanly. Let us insure one another, darling, so that if the worst happens we can cry without interruption. Let us put nine-tenths of our money into insurance.»
«It will leave us very little to live on now,» said she. «But that is all the better, beloved, because then it will be all the more of a consolation.»
«That was exactly my idea,» said he. «We always have the same thoughts. This very day I will take out the policies.»
«And let us,» cried she, «insure our dear bird also,» pointing to the feathered cageling, whom they always left uncovered at night, in order that his impassioned trills might grace their diviner raptures.
«You are right,» said he. «I will put ten bucks on the bird. His chirpings would be as a string of pearls to me, if ever I were left alone.»
That day Irwin made arrangements for the investment of nine-tenths of his earnings. «We are poor,» said he, on his return, «but we have each other. If ever we are robbed of that joy we shall at least have many thousands of dollars.»
«Do not speak of them,» said she. «Hateful dollars!»
«By all means,» said he. «Let us have dinner. I was very economical at lunchtime, and I am unusually hungry this evening.»
«It will not take long,» said she. «I was economical at the market, and have bought a new sort of food. It is amazingly cheap, and it contains a whole alphabet of vitamins, enough to keep a whole family in pep and energy for a week. It says so in the description on the packet.»
«Splendid!» said he. «Depend upon it; your dear, sweet, tender little metabolism, and my great, gruff, bearish metabolism, will spell all the honey-dovey-love-words in creation out of that same alphabet of vitamins.»
No prospect could be more agreeable, but as the days passed it appeared that their metabolism would have put on a poor show at any word-making game. Or perhaps the manufacturer of the product had been misled by some alien-minded scientist, and had thus erred slightly in the description on the packet. Irwin grew so weak that he could no longer leap into the air at the thought of his darling, his tender, his deliciously rounded little wife. On the other hand, Alice grew so thin that he no longer had any reason to do so.
Her stockings now wrinkled revoltingly upon her stick-like legs.
«I think,» thought Irwin, «she no longer rushes to greet me with eager rapture as of yore. Perhaps it's as well. How much more delightful, to be greeted by a porterhouse steak!»
What with this new, disturbing thought, and his sawdust diet, and the innumerable financial worries that increasingly beset the young lovers, now that nine-tenths of their income went into insurance, Irwin frequently passed wakeful nights, but he no longer felt impelled to switch on the light, and feast his eyes on his beloved. The last time he had done so, she had mistaken his face for an omelette. «Oh, it's only you,» she had murmured, turning crossly away.
They fed their new diet to the bird, who soon afterwards flopped on his back, threw up his feet, and died. «At least we get fifty bucks on him,» said Irwin. «And he is only a bird!»
«I hope we are not thinking the same thought,» said Alice.
«Of course not,» said he. «How can you imagine it?»
«I certainly am not,» said she. «How shall we spend the money? Shall we buy another canary?»
«No,» said he. «Let us have something bigger. Let us buy a big, fat roasting chicken.»
«So we will,» said she, «and potatoes and mushrooms and string beans, and chocolate cake, and cream and coffee.»
«Yes,» said he. «And coffee. Get some good, strong, bitter coffee; something with a real kick to it, if you know what I mean.»
«I will get,» said she, «the best, the strongest, and the bitterest I can.»
That night they were not long in carrying in the dishes, nor in emptying them when they were on the table.
«This is certainly good strong coffee,» said Irwin. «And bitter.»
«Is it not?» said she. «You didn't by any chance, change the cups round while I was in the kitchen?»
«No, dear,» said Irwin. «I was just wondering if you had. It certainly seems to have a kick in it.»
«Oh, Irwin!» cried Alice. «Is it possible we had the same thought after all?»
«It feels like it,» cried Irwin, legging it for the door faster even than he had done in the old days, when he used to leave saloons and barrooms with such impetuous speed. «I must get to a doctor.»
«So must I,» said she, fumbling also for the latch.
The poison, however, acted extremely quickly on their weakened constitutions. Even as they scuffled for precedence they fell prone upon the door mat, and the postman came and covered them with bills.